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So the boy and I got to talking tonight about "what if's?" in terms of major disasters. In light of whats currently happening in Japan, its a little hard not to imagine what one would do in such a situation. We tried to formulate a plan : where would we head first? what if there was no way to reach anyone? should we have a meeting point? what about our families? what if we're not together when it happens? what about the dog? And that was pretty much the last straw for me. My mind started to drift off and sale away to anxiety island. And I'm actually surprised at this! Usually I'd be able to handle a discussion like this without launching a full attack of tears. But all i could do was picture the most dire scenario: the city in ruins, me wandering the streets ALONE, writing messages on buildings, trying desperately to get to the boy. 

The thought of the possibility of loosing everything you have in matter of minutes....I can't even fathom. I'm not sure if its the right thing to do but at some point you really do have to turn the television off and stop watching the news. Or you'll go crazy. And honestly, the reality is that we're always in danger of loosing everything, every minute of the day. Life wouldn't be so beautiful and mysterious and amazing if it weren't for that fact. "FRAAAG-EE-LE," as they say in A Christmas Story. 

From the open door of the bathroom (because we're THAT couple) I yelled to the boy who was in the computer room,"What about a zombie attack??" "NOT gonna happen. NOT possible," he said while reading. "But how do you know?" I bugged. "Because you can't reanimate dead tissue." says he. "But what if the government has some secret terrorist tissue weapon and they CAN reanimate dead tissue???" I continued. "Then I'll just have to try and remember that you're my favorite zombie, and not to axe your head."  <3  

Thank god for the boy's sense of humor and the half of Xanax thats getting me to sleep tonight. :o)